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boemelaartje

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[Feb. 27th, 2006|08:53 pm]
boemelaartje
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[music |throw me a rope-KT tunstall]

HI

i'm back. I havn't been here for the longest time. Partly because steve's here and i don't feel like updating as much, partly because of wieger.

mmmm wieger. as to say my bf. i like him a lot. he's different than anyone i've seen before and different than you'd expect. he makes me calm, horny, happy, smiling, and that all mixed up together. He's sweet, caring, funny, handsome. he makes me blissful. I'm still scared to get hurt. Especially about summertime.. i'm coming back to canada(4 weeks, yay!) and after that i'll (prolly) go with coba for 2 weeks. that means i won't see him for 7 weeks which is an awefull long time.. And that scares me. I'm scared that he'll dump me right when i start caring. Which is now. I'm starting to care, really care. And i don't wanna be as crashed as i was 3 months ago... i truelly don't. Plus i can't even imagine not having him around( since we're in the same classes, same school, and he lives in the neighboor i pretty much see him all the time.. drives people/steve, i'm sorry buddy,lol\ crazy, but i'm just sooo into him) and yeah, he makes that i forget everything else.


cause what else was there, used to be there, is jake. was jake. of course. but i don't think about him anymore. and if i do... it doesn't stir any emotions. i'm fine. If i think about him i'm more like, yeah. idk, i'm not happy, not sad, not angry. just numb. It's just this person i used to love. i got to a point of not caring anymore. Except for last week, at one point i had a big crash down... i just.. arrgh got so mad at him again. just because he ruined things for me and i hate him for treating me the way he did. I'll never forget him. i'll remember how good it was, how bad. and yeah, that's where the story ends.

Wieg just went to prague for a week. missed him like crazy. had an awesome vacation tho, did much crazy stuff with steve and hung out with coba a lot.

I want you between me and the feeling i get when i miss you,
but everything here's telling me i should be fine,
so why is it so, it bothers below that im missing you every time?

i got used to you whispering things to me into the evening,
we followed the sun, and it's colours, and left this world,
it seems to me, that i'm definately, hearing the best that i've heard,.

so throw me a rope, to hold me in place,
show me a clock, for counting my days, down,
cos everythings easier when you're beside me,
come back and find me,
cos i feel alone.

and whenever you go it's like holding my breath under water,
i have to admit that i kinda like it when i do,
oh but i got to be, unconditionally,
unafraid, of my days, without you,

so throw me a rope, to hold me in place,
show me a clock, for counting my days, down,
'cos everything easier when you're beside me,
come back and find me,
whenever i'm falling, you're always behind me,
come back and find me,
cos everythings easier when you're beside me,
come back and find me,
cos i feel alone

i'll add more later.

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From: uberdakkie
2006-02-27 08:39 pm (UTC)
and whenever you go it's like holding my breath under water, i have to admit that i kinda like it when i do, oh but i got to be, unconditionally, unafraid, of my days, without you love those lines
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[User Picture]From: boemelaartje
2006-02-27 09:25 pm (UTC)
unconditionally, unafraid, of my days, without you


i know.

but i'm not. i am afraid
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